12 or more artsies, 12 days.














On the twelfth day of Giftmas~ I toh-tah-lee drewhoo~
TWELVE; TOTAL VORETARD
ELEVENTH LICK ICON, YAY
TEN LITTLE BUBBLES
NINE IS NEIN CANINE
EIGHT or more ghost-ducks
SEVENTH friggin canine
SIXTH one is zeivin~
[thisand] FIIIIIVE OTHEEEERRR THIIIIIINGS!!!!!
a fourth dragon~,
THREE DUMB FRIENDS,
TWO LICK ICONS!!
and A PURPLE DOG FOR NUL-LY~


second to last journal I promise, art uploading will slow down too ^^

Yeah it's really windy outside xD

And, yes I played hooky from school today... but seriously... yesterday was the worst day of mah life I can tell ya right now, in full confidence. ...but my confidence sucks, so it may have just been the saddest day evar xD
I'm not even completely sure why, though. Maybe just all this shit caught up to me subconsciously and I broke down >3>;;;

We don't have money for anything, okay? I'm supposed to have started my grad project negative 14 days ago and when I'd finally said "jfkljdflkjsdlf I'm goin, like it or not, even just for an hour" my mom shoots that plan down with "I'm not going to pick you back up!" So I told her dumbass to stay, JUST for a measly hour, alright? But then she's like "we don't have any gas!!! the van is ruined, I need to buy another $50 part for it, and THEN rent the $50 dollar tool to use it" and she has this she still have to pay off ($162+ bank thing) M&T bank ripped us off WAY too many times, like when we were only supposed to have ONE insufficient funds fee, they gave us like 2. They are terrible with those things!

On top of it, it smelled like pot in the house when we'd come home on Tuesday. Why? My brother smoked it and completely denied it, but I knew. Mom and I both knew.
What happened extra yesterday? He gets caught with pot at school putting it in someone's locker. Claimed he was going to sell it so we could get money, since we needed money. He is going to be suspended for 3 days, and possibly expelled. My mom gets fined. Fucking great. Good job, asshole.
So that day (this pot crud happened after school) when I was at home my mom cried twice, the first time I kinda just went back to my room (where I came from a nap) and lay there in bed, freezing to death. I came out later to eat spaghetti and she goes on that "am I a bad mother" shit and this time instead of shrugging and shit I used what my teacher said as an answer "it's like what Laucks said, her older brother is a crack fiend, her sister(?) has no job and I forget what she said about her other brother and she's the only one with a good job but still, we were talking about this on Monday about how kids come out from the same exact family but come out completely different...*shrug*" aaand then came her waterworks and I followed suit Again. Dammit.

But at school, it was more or less little things (that happen practically every day, but still) Such as people not responding to me. Or people attacking my opinion, all the time. Talking rudely to me, or talking like I'm inferior and stupid. It's amazing what one tone of voice can do.
Come on.
You could have gone "nothing~ ;D" In the most playful voice, and I would have been " >|D betch." in my own playful tone. (I asked what someone had said because she looked at me and said something, which is clearly a motion that you're talking directly to them) But instead, the other person said "Nothing." In the most smartass tone... I just fucking ASKED!!! Forgive me for being the biggest moron on the face of the planet in your eyes, I suck I know.
And for shit sake... all of my opinions... can't exist without getting questioned or shot down or just plain ol' hated on. ;_; (this is not exact on purpose, as the one I am talking about is _supposed to be a good friend)
Saix: I think that's cute x3 (talking about the 'give a subscription, get one'
-: I think it's cute how everyone's all hyped about them.
Saix: ..well I like them... so myah...
As I left to ask my teacher something [which I came in there to do in the first place] I heard them continue to talk bad about my motherfucking opinion, and they continued to do that until I left. (I didn't wait for my question answered. She was busy. ._.)

When I was done with what my teacher wanted me to do (finally) I came and sat down at my desk and tried to work on my illustration, but it didn't last long at all. I quit and put my head down and just sat there thinking how badly I suck. I was also listening to the conversation of the class, and I did not particularly enjoy the "animal surgeries are too expensive to save them, so I'll just put them down 8D!!!" (quite in a fond tone) and then my eyes watered up. Then I cried BECAUSE my eyes watered up in SCHOOL. (I hate that!!!) And I couldn't stop.
Several times I did stop and got some tissues (gross my nose had snot running from it >_< ) and used my sleeve.
When people ask me if I'm OK while I'm crying, that just makes it worse. (thank you Michelle for asking afterward but thanks for the other peeps who asked at all too. thought that counts.)
When people comfort me, that makes it worse too. It makes me fall apart completely. But thank you Biscuit. I'm sorry I made you miss lunch

So... when I was finally done BAAAWing... I looked at the underclassmen's work, to which some of them were just "wtf" fail. Some were pretty, and a lot were black. GET SOME CREATIVITY!!! It's funny though cuz the ones that made an object that needs to be whole in their painting.. are gonna get disappointed when they have to cut them Myahaha, dorks. <3

My teacher had wanted me to tell her what was wrong the entire time but had I done it while I was still cryin, I would have cried more.
So when I had told her, _{she kinda read me like a book} about how I don't want to go home at all and she knows why I stay in class at the end of the day, wanna do shit on the weekends, etc. :U
Then SHE started cryin and of course the chain of BAAW made me do it too. |D But thank you Laucks for bein there... If you do indeed read this sorry for all my cussing, I hope I don't owe you like 30 bucks for all of it xDDD

Well anyway sorry for that gigantic rant, I just seriously needed to get it out. I ruined my perfect attendance today. XD

~Saix

JOIN!! FACKING JOIN!



Not the song!
THE RED WAS KYOUSHIRO'S SCARS!!!


I honestly will tell you I have no idea what to write but I don't wanna break the chain again...(unless having poll AND journal every 2 weeks is a better idea, which it might be...hm...)

This stupid break has been too long, boring and uneventful. Yesterday I sat on my ass for HOURS at this stupid computer, needless to say I'll probably gain 100 pounds by the time the break is over -w-
Sooo fat yo |D

Got too many thanksgiving polls, too many journals, just...gah. Spam plz?

And if you guys are gonna facking voice Neota, record yourself already! I'm freaking sick of going "oh..um. you might be good for-" to people I know SUCK to begin with. So instead I'd rather say they are taken, I will not say reserved quite yet. This is really gettin on my nerves, especially since YOU guys said you were ready and wanted to do this. It saddens me greatly. >:C
(you know who you are, not everybody)

I CAN'T FRIGGIN WAIT FOR ONE PIECE MOVIE STRONG WORLD ZOMFG IMA GO INSANE, IS IT DECEMBER YET?!

My brother sucks, again, once more. I'll tell you what he did if I feel like it in a comment if you ask

I'ma draw today like I should have been since the start of this vacation so I can get something DONE!! >XC

-Saix

Kissed one of your DA friends?
Innocent

Danced on a table in a bar?
Innocent

Ever told a lie?
Guilty

Had feelings for someone whom you can't have?
Guilty

Ever kissed someone of the same sex?
Innocent

Kissed a picture?
Guilty

Slept in until 5 PM?
Guilty

Fallen asleep at work/school?
Guilty

Held a snake?
Guilty

Been suspended from school?
Innocent

Worked at a fast food restaurant?
Innocent

Been fired from a job?
Innocent

Done something you regret?
Guilty

Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose?
Guilty

Caught a snowflake on your tongue?
Guilty

Kissed in the rain?
Innocent

Sat on a roof top?
Guilty

Kissed someone you shouldn't?
Innocent

Sang in the shower?
Guilty

Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?
Innocent

Shaved your head?
Innocent

Slept naked?
Guilty

Had a boxing membership?
Innocent

Made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?
Guilty

Donated Blood?
Innocent

Eaten alligator meat?
Innocent

Eaten cheesecake?
Innocent

Still love someone you shouldn't?
Innocent

Have/had a tattoo?
Innocent

Liked someone, but will never tell who?
Guilty

Been too honest?
Guilty

Ruined a surprise?
Guilty

Ate in a restaurant and got really bloated so you couldn't walk afterwords?
Guilty

Erased someone in your friends list?
Guilty

Dressed in a woman's clothes (if your a guy) or man's clothes (if your a girl)?
Guilty

Joined a pageant?
Innocent

Been told that you're handsome or beautiful by someone who totally meant what they said?
Guilty

Had communication w/ your ex?
Guilty

Get totally drunk one night and you have an important exam tomorrow morning?
Innocent

A total stranger treats you by paying your jeepney/tricycle fare?
Innocent

Get totally angry that you cried so hard?
Guilty

Tried to stay away from someone for their own good?
Guilty

Thought about suicide?
Guilty

Thought about murder?
Guilty

How about mass murder?
Guilty

Tried illegal drugs?
Innocent

Rode in a stranger's vehicle?
Guilty

Stalked someone?
Guilty

Been so drunk that you forget things that happened while you were intoxicated?
Innocent

Had a girlfriend/boyfriend?
Guilty

In love?
Guilty

Mushrooms! Under my boobs! Candida, look it up. Yes I'm fat. Very very fat. (big ol' 180)

Lawl I've been abusing the little dropdown menus by the x button under journals and polls POLLS ESPECIALLY xD "UNWATCH ____'S POLLS" or journals. You gotta stop updating like hell man~!

And I skipped the journal last week so I'm doing both this week o3o 'nother journal next week!

Not much to say although I had lots to say before, I forgot or stopped caring. Such as this hot topic I talked to someone about, but I'm upset I did cuz I KNOW when I do and when they badger me to put it up I stop feeling like it. (same with chores)

My brother made my mom cry again, he keeps skipping school. I was planning on getting him back for like 5 hours by hacking his myspace or his girlfriend's myspace and writing something evil about the other, but then my mom told me he broke up with her cuz she's bicurious about this other chick. I laughed, then got sad cuz I wouldn't be able to be hax0rzin D= oh well. HA SHE LIKES A GIRL N NOT CHU! X3 You're a loser! You're failing school again! I want to stab you in the face with a searing hot tire iron laced with cow piss _{facking carnivorous bastard}

Lil Muffin my kitten is the cutest lil thing evar. So cuddly and cute and she cries all weird x3 She likes to be held and to sit in the window and lay on my pillow and I'm the only one who can hold her xDD she don't like my mom and my brother sucks, and my sister is 4 so we know cats hate toddlers ewe especially Muffin's brother Toby. She's drawn to Toby like a bug to light, I swear. Facking annoying as shit.

I think Ima search for a quiz
BTW I changed Rizeer's head again, his chin pissed me off.

~~Just a DeviantART quiz~~

1: Why did you join this site?
~~Because I got tired of that weird ad popping up and also all the google pics I looked up 2-some years ago came from here so I thought it'd be neat to join, then my account died for a few months (like til august) then I got on a furry game I forgot the name... and met some peeps and they forced me to upload some art

2: What does your user name have to do with you? Is it a combination of your favourite things, , or a character of yours?
~~I like dragons. I liked black. I wanted a neat word in the mix that meant cave or something along the lines. Chasm. thar.

3: What is your current icon of?
~~Saix, my dragonsona licking the side of the box!

4: How many watchers do you have and how many people are you currently watching?
~~I watch 1,024 people and 346 watch me.

5: Do you have more than one account?
~~Yes but if I told you I'd have to kill you. Also have some clubs I gave up on.

6: Name 3 of your favourite artists on DA.
~~~Homicidalrevolver ~Ellinor87 *kerembeyit

7: What deviant do you admire because of their personality?
~~~GWARins-Knight poptart

5: How many people on here do you actually know in reality? Post their avatars.
~~

6: Do you comment, fave, or both?
~~FAV N RUN!!!! Comment rarely.

7: What do you typically post on deviantart?
~~Pornography (dragons, animals, bullshit)

8: Do you participate in clubs or contests here on DA?
~~*ShinXChange is really the only one I do.

9: What is your most popular deviation?
~~Chasm Flight, lookit up

10: What's your favourite submission in your favourites gallery?
~~ [link] , hands down.

11: What are the things you wish you could draw better?
~~humans, scenery, frontviews, many things

12: Are you a subscriber?
~~quite. have been for as long as I can remember.

13: How many hours a day do you spend on DA?
~~depends...up to 5 mostly :\

14: Are you a fast, slow, or medium typer?
~~how fast is 80 words a minute, mother fucker? X3

15: What is your favourite emoticon?
~~

16: What is the most annoying thing people ask you?
~~č̷͕̹̠͖̼̩͌̌̓̊ͦͩ͞a̧ͬ̕҉͖̘n̦ͬ̄̿͂͗̎ͩ͘ ̷͉͔͙͓̹̟͆̐̏̋ͣ͐͝y̨̙̖͔̳͚͗ͯ̓͂̑ͬo͋̑͂ͤ͏̩͖͈̬̜̟̲́͝ͅͅu̹̠̖̝̘̞̓̅ͥ̇͊̽ͧͤ̀ ̢̨̯̮̪͔̘̬ͨ̉ͫͧ͌ͨg͎̰̬̪̏̏͘͜͝ͅe͌̈́̒͋҉̨҉̘t̖̘̭͎̰̎ͣͮ̊̓ͮͮ̓͞ ̨̯͎̜̞̯̳̌̈́ͬ̄͑͟o̷͖̳̣̮̅̈͘̕n̺̠̖̻̣͖̼͌͋̎͋͐ ̮ͤ̒̈́͊͌͜͡i͔͎̺̬̰̾̇̋ͧ͌͒͢s̛͎̖̼̥͓͓͂̏̄̐ͧ̓ͭ͝͝c̢̼̠̮̺̲͖̰̯̃̈́ŗͪ͂ͮͯ̌̿̇҉̰̣̪͉̪̟͔̦i̸̻͇̹̦̦̗ͦ̒́ͭb̴͉͙͕͖̐ͭ͂͐̄̓̾̂b̨̖̫̱̲̥̜̄̓̂̍͜͞l̢̘͓̥̘̮̔̏ͬ͒̓̅ͥͅẽ̡͙͍͕̔̆͆̀̄̀̚͠?̶̳̙̜͙͍̪͑͗̾̍

17: What is the most annoying comment you get?
~~THNX 4 THE FAV (in all its formes)

18: What inspires you?
~~music, art, dreams

19: Do you use any traditional media?
~~that's my main shiz

20: Do you associate people online with their icons?
~~hell yea!

21: Have you ever suggested a Daily Deviation?
~~nope. don't plan on it lawl

22: Everyone has considered leaving DA once or twice. Have you? Why?
~~yea but out of emoness. it's all good.

=SAIX

And that's not a threat; it's a promise!
lmao


I'm updating early because I'm going to be at 2 Pearl Jam concerts on Friday and Saturday. I'm staying at a hotel for one night, it'll be a sort of mini vacation. x3 After school my mom will pick me up and we'll drop my sister off at her dad's, then be on our way. Mom said we'd be in the car for like, 3 hours. X_X Oh well. After the concert we'll go back to the hotel...shower, what not. Sleep. Blah. Then since the Saturday concert isn't til later, she said we would screw off until then~! She dunno if we'll go to the mall, an aquarium, or a museum. I hope we has enough money xD;;;

And for the "Flavah of the Week," which is basically like a 100 themes challenge (except not 100) for homework rather than having a sketchbook for art class. This week's theme is "27," yes, the number 27. All this week I was trying to figure out what to do, and finally yesterday I got my idea bitch (~GWARins-Knight) to help me out... he gave me the idea to do Uranus, who has 27 moons. I spent all 3 periods (about 120 minutes) drawing it up and then I printed it and ready to go. Before next class my teacher was like "I don't know if I'm gonna take this...Neptune and the planets..." I was like "moons" and she said w/ever and I said "Yer Anus" and she was like "YER anus!!" lol but I had to shrug it off cuz I had to go to gym. Then at the end of the day I went back to the classroom cuz I use it as a locker xD and I went to the basket to figure out what was wrong with my picture (we put our finished things in a basket to get graded...dur) and I didn't know so I put it back and stood by a desk like an idiot all confused and what not and she walks by and goes "I'm not takin that" and I was all D> WRYYY and she wouldn't tell me she just looked at me like she expected me to understand what she was hatin on it for then punched me on my shoulder and normally I'd be all xD rofl you bitch, but this time I had my period and it was goin a whole diff direction, so I went and got the picture and stood in front of her still confused wantin to know why she didn't like it, but she just told me no and I told her I didn't know what else to do but she told me to go home and think about another one... Again, I'd be all dorky and laugh at it normally but my period made me wanna cry right there, so I just got my shit and left I was holdin back tears on the bus =3= for about 20 minutes probably more, then I just stared blankly for several more minutes trying to think, and fell asleep for a few, and woke up with 15 minutes to spare before I got home. I really couldn't think of much of anything... I'm going to make a recycled necklace with 27 objects. I'm guessin I'll have 13 different objects repeated twice with one extra thing in the middle, probably a feather, to make 27. If this isn't good, I don't even care.

Well that's a little tl;dr but if you wanna understand me more xD I guess read it... I'm a little sad today that's all. Came home, ignored my interrogating mother and grandmother askin me what was wrong even though I repetitively said NOTHING, and mom had gotten me a bag of Reeses cups to which I took to my room and stuffed 2 in my mouth before going to bed ;3; ....nom. <3

And if you update too much I just won't look at it... don't take it personally, I just have a short attention span. c:

I guess this is enough... But I did get some people who were interested in being a Neota voice actor! I was so happy! <3 Please try out. Go to my youtube. [link] I will love you forever!

-Saix